I honestly don't remember when I started blogging. Perhaps it was in 2008, I'm not sure. However, I was certain that this blog is the succession from 2016 when I started to assemble Al Araf 7:7. From there I got to know Brenda, then Sarah, then Els, and from there the blog just [] (took) off.
I cannot do it without the blog. Many times I tried to abandon the blog but I end up coming back for it. Just like I tried to abandon TraXX. I realized that I cannot do without both. That is why the highlight of my life is when I blog in the wee hours while listening to Sound Journey.
The blog is really my mirror looking at my own reflection. It is for me to organize my thoughts and plan ahead. Most of you might not realize that I had twenty-three years of Bipolar Disorder. That is not a small feat. The blog is my earth wire. It helps me stay grounded. So I figured, I will be blogging for a very long time. It is a form of therapy.
Don't think for a split second that I write the blog for you all. Nope... The blog is a pure indulgence. I justify my existence through my writings. If I don't write that day, I am pretty much a worthless piece of shit. In actual sense, I am already a worthless piece of shit. Somehow the blog cleanse me of my worthlessness sins.
I personally think that there is nothing for you all in the[re] (the) future by continue reading the blog. It is a self-indulgence tool. As for all the dirty little secrets, they are already out in the open. What is there to follow?
Are you all surprised with the Half and Half decision made by Alam Shah Alam? I'm not. Are you shocked by the turn of events from Phase I to Phase II? I'm not. What are other thing that might get you hooked? That we are gods? Is that it? The only people that cannot accept this idea are the Malays. In Sufism, this is common. Look at their dzhikr.
So you don't need me beyond the burden of leadership that I have to tow. Take it from me, it is Autonomous Governance and the Zen of Personal Bliss. I am giving you the opportunity to be Autotheists for goodness sake. What is more liberating than that? Wh[at] (Why) are you worried? I told you, everything is true to those who believe. So just believe INCLUDING believing that two parallel lines will intersect at infinity[?] Just have a believing mind!
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