This is the sieving process. Until now, I am very sure of certain genuine events and those that *[] (are) delusions.
* Right, not all are delusions especially those that were supported with evidence.
I am not too concerned with the ingenuity. That only shows that some events are good and some are not; like panning for gold. It will be an antithesis if all are genuine or all are delusions. It is part of the journey.
I have to weave between mania and psychosis. So I just sieve between clues to know what is right and what is not to differentiate between fantasy and reality. That show I am not crazy. I can still think straight on occasion regardless of my illness. Should I [cannot] cannot tell the difference, then it is confirmed that I am crazy.
So the fact that I passed the test is an indication that I am rational. The only thing is, my reality is different.
I will hold on to the epiphanies and insist that nothing was created in vain. I had reached the Noktah. That is the indication that we are to start on a clean slate.
This is a good sign. At present, I just concentrate on the signs that were made available in the CCC.
I cut from the past and I just look forward.
As we sp[ack] (speak) now, even the CCC is complete. It may seem that the magic is gone, but the truth is, it is a sign that things are already complete.
We are now marking time. This means it is time to sow another harvest. This is a new phase altogether. No more esoteric thoughts, just pure bliss.
2023 is a doji year. I need another 5 months to get my act together. I will still aim to train for my runs. I will still train to lose 40 km. This is a new beginning. The past does not equal the future.
This can be done. Just like quitting cigarettes. I will keep on trying until I make it. Failure is not an option. I will not fail. That is my commitment.
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