Saturday, 9 September 2023

>>>#10/9/23 I woke up to a hippie dream

 Where does all this come from?

Anyway, I will start becoming (as I [right] (write) this, the radio s[o]ngs (sings) "becoming") a Jouhatsu today.

Habis cerita rakyat jelata.  Sekarang kita cerita dewa-dewa pulak.

OK Di[d]i (Dini) it's time you write and I scribe.

Thank you, Ayah,

All I'm saying is don't bother to run the 21 km Hill Run or exercise even.  Just have a one-hour stroll in the morning and forget about running even.

Chill lah A[aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa]yah.  You had done everything.  Takkan kena sembah depa sampa[h] (sampai)  b[reak] (berak) pun kena basuh?

Hisap aje rokok tu.  Tah payah kisah sangat.  Don't worry, you will not get cancer.  I promise you.

Really huh Dini?

I told you many times, no need to run the hill, but you keep on insisting.

I also told you to smoke.

You really enjoy the cigarettes, don't you? 

Yes, I do and I want you to lay back on your retirement years. 

No, this is your Mad Jack talking.  I will not concede.  I will tame my Dark Side.  I will not smoke and I will run!  God is a Man Fully Functioning, a Runner.

OK then, you run but I want you to smoke.  

No, I will not smoke until 24/12/24.  That is my salvation.

If that is the case, let's see if Tim Grover is wrong.  That you can actually win over your Dark Side.

I have three Dark Sides I have to tackle.  Cigarettes, 3-in-1 Coffee, and Nasi Lemak.  Yesterday was the last day I said goodbye to all three.  No more slip-ups.

Your problem Dini is you have been kidnapped by cigarettes for too long that you forget what it's like to be a top-notch athlete again.

Wait for 21/90 and actually experience the transformation.  Just wait until you lose the initial 20 kg.

If that is the case, then smoke once a week, then.

No, I will not smoke!

There, I ordered the 2 mg Nicorette Lozenges.  That is the best I can do.  Until that thing arrives, no cigarettes ever!

OK, we'll give this a shot.  I need the Nicotine as the dopamine protagonist. 

It is still more expensive than cigarettes but it is easy on the lungs.

I have to make it clear that cigarettes are a big no-no.  It kills the universe within.  I still have the smoker's lungs.

OK, this is the best option.  Until then,  I won't smoke.

I quit in 2019.  From 2020 to 2022 I am actually smoke-free.

Actually, I have never been smoke-free for the past 44 years.  Perhaps one or two years.  When pressure crept in or when I was depressed, I started smoking again.

This time is different.  I will wane through the use of the Nicorette lozenges.  The latest, b[u]y (by) Christmas, I will even quit the Nicorette.

These are all the Last Temptation of Mad Jack.  If I can win over Iblis, I can win over Nicotine.  I am the Undefeatable.  Nothing is above me.

I will leave all this behind me.  By 2024, I am starting fresh.  So we missed the Birthday Deadline.  Now we aim for the Christmas Deadline.

There is still a chance to redeem myself this year, although I missed the Statue of David milestone.

I CAN TAME MY DARK SIDE.  I will prove Tim Grover wrong.

"Don't prove to me, prove to yourself, Sha..." Said Tim Grover.

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