The only wa[s] (way) to quit dope is to stop seeing him for good. I am confident, if I can persist in not seeing BJ and RR, I am free of cigarettes and dope.
Dope drives me crazy (the radio mentioned "crazy" too). No matter what, I am convinced that I am the Chosen one. It's just that I had been under the influence of intoxicants.
With these patternicities, I am sure these are signs for me to take heed of. So we are already past that hurdle. The next step is to fight and w[ill] (work) all the way no matter how long it takes like quitting smoking.
So tonight we bury BJ and his dope. No more BJ forever and ever. I have to learn to handle stress without the need for dope. Together with him are RR and his cigarettes. I don't need any one of them.
This is a brutal game. This is Shogi. Where the only person that cannot flip is the king. The rest are guns for hire. So I will not cross to the dark side. Both Gold and Silver are potential threats. I can only rely on myself.
In God We Trust.
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