Wednesday, 5 July 2023

5/7/23 ^^^ After 2 rounds of FMEH, my pulse is beating faster. I am more alert

This is a good sign.  I am still redeemable.  Hold on until September.

This good feeling sweeps through my body. 

I have to make it.  It is not a question of choice.  Either I do it or forever I am a loser.

I told myself that I quit cigarettes in 2019.  The truth is I became a secret smoker since then.  I can't live like that.  After all, I am Sine Cera.  I should not lie to myself.

The truth hurts.  I can only be a non-smoker beginning in 2024.  That is why no matter what I cannot smoke even a stick.  Once I start I cannot quit.

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