This is really bad. I crave to see BJ. As long as there is a craving, I am still addicted.
This is the time to say a BIG NO!
It seems I am drawn to BJ like a magnet. I will persist. No BJ, no dope.
I must resist. Definitely, BJ is a strong pull. He was my crutch for 40 years. All I got to do now is resist him for the next 2 months.
I am only a decision away. It's like flipping a switch. With one flip my life can go tumbling down. No flipping the switch no matter what.
As long as there is a craving, I am still addicted.
No point rationalizing. Once I fall into the pitcher plant, I am doomed for the rest of my life.
Instead of rationalizing why I should smoke or why I should see BJ, I should stick to the vision of me being an avid runner.
Therefore, I should AVOID at all costs the desire to smoke cigarettes and dope. I need to carry this through to 2024.
In the meantime, I will remember:
As long as there is a craving, I am still addicted.
The craving only grips for 30 minutes at a go. Just say no...
The lungs are recovering. The nastiest gunk was on Aidil Adha. How will I ever forget that?
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